Currently Listening Passion By Hikaru Utada Passion ~After the Battle~ see related

I am going through the grieving process right now. My cat, Jinxie, has been missing since late January, 2006. He was my very first cat. I got him as a kitten in 2002 when I was 12-years-old. My sister came home one day and asked if we wanted a cat becuase a friend of her's from her office was getting rid of some kittens. I begged my mother for him.

I remember the day I got him. He had been eating and he had a piece of cat food stuck on his wisker. At first I though he was really annoying, becuase he was just a kitten and didn't know right from wrong just yet. The first night I had him, he drove me mad because he kept meowing the whole night so I didn't get much sleep. I thought of taking him back the next day, but I didn't.

I still remember the day he left me. I was about to leave the house to catch the bus to school. My mother opened the door for him to go outside, I was behind her when she did this but I wasn't paying any attention to Jinxie. Mama says she remembers him pausing and looking back at us, almost as if he knew he wasn't going to come back home, then walking down the steps, disappering into the morning. We never saw him again.

Now everytime I hear a faint cats meow, I think of him, and wonder if he has returned to me. But no..... We don't know what happend to him. No body, no neighbors have called us about him, nothing. Yes, it's true he could still be alive out there. Maybe in my own backyard. I miss seeing him come to visit me when I got off of the bus from school in the afternoon. I've seen what I think to be him many times.

I feel like part of me left with him. He tought me something...I know it, but I just can't explain what...

But I could go on and on about these memories of him...

Visit my Deinition Memorial Page for Jinxie: http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/30910524/

<3 Carly